As children we always played out this game of who our mothers were and they
were
always beautiful, important, they weren't-- they weren't ever ordinary,
ordinary
people. So, we all played the same game … And then slowly I realised
that
I didn't want to pursue it. That if you turn over stones you have to take
responsibility for what you find underneath, don't you? Or you don't do it
… Not because I've firmly shut a door that I'm afraid to go through.
It's
just one I-- I don't-- don't want to-- to pursue. I-- I've-- I've had
contact
with people who have traced birth parents, not necessarily Foundlings, and
have
had very mixed outcomes. It's not what perhaps I would've imagined as a
child.”